1st & Green

We are going green for the 2012 Super Bowl!!! The city of Indianapolis is host to the next Super Bowl and one of the awesome initiatives Host Committee has started is 1st & Green to help offset the impact of hosting the 2012 Super Bowl on our enviroment! I signed my household up today and we already offset 390 pounds of carbon...I wish I could just as easily offset pounds on my arse that easily!

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My Son

As I said in a previous post I had a pretty horrific year so let me explain while I'm in the sharing mood. I found out I was pregnant on December 3, 2009. It was a surprise but after a month of pure shock our hearts started opening and we felt blessed to receive such a miracle. A miracle because after 7 years together we had never even had a scare and then two days after my Papaw died somehow we conceived. I say "somehow" but trust me, I know how it works! lol I shared the news with my family and to my amazement everyone was thrilled and the farther along I got, the more my belly and baby grew the more we all got anxious to meet my little one. I drove people crazy picking out all the "best of" items for our registries because I truly spent days and weeks researching baby items. When I couldn't find the perfect crib and changer in my state of Indiana I just picked what I needed up in Louisville, Kentucky! NBD!!! Today I am the mother of son I never got to meet. My heart is broken into a billion tiny little pieces and live everyday just trying to smile through all the pain. I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy with no apparent issues, just that at some point inside me he died. I was 2 days away from August 3rd (his due date) when this happened and I still find it cruel that I made it so far to lose so much. I suppose I am feeling down lately which is why I want to share my experience...hoping it well help me and maybe even help someone else (assuming someone actually reads this blog). Perhaps tomorrow will be a brighter day.